So I can't exactly start from the beginning telling this story so I guess the best place to start is right here.
I have brain cancer.
It took me days to just verbalize that... The word cancer itself sends fear trembling through your veins as the doctor tells you, not the person sitting next to you; but you, that this is what you have. There isn't really a response to this as the spit in the back of my throat dried.
The doctor looked at me with as much fear in her eyes as I knew was contained within me. I had no idea what all this meant at the time so I braved another question...Is it something we can fix?...and the same fear remained in her eyes as she new the answer wasn't what i wanted to hear.
That day, July 16th 2013. My life changed forever.
Chris,
ReplyDeleteMy heart and prayers go out to you. Mike and I both know what it is like to have a loved one with brain cancer. We both had brothers who suffered and fought good hard fights with this disease. I took care of my sweet brother in the last months of his life fighting this disease. If you or Katie ever need support or have questions about what our brothers went through or what we did to help them in the stages of their cancer, please don't hesitate to call. I will continue to think about you both and prayers will never cease.
Love,
Ellen and Mike Ellis
312-2644
I love you. And Katie. And Sampson. You are amazing and we are so blessed that y'all are in our lives.
ReplyDelete-With much love from your (again) down the street neighbors.
Chris:
ReplyDeleteThere are no words that will make this easier or change what you are going through, however keep in mind that the power of life and death lies in the hands of Elohim the Creator, the Lord God Almighty is never surprised by our circumstances or by the end of our journey on this earth. Our days are numbered before we are born, the date our journey ends has been made, just as the Cancer Center Commercial states, you have no expiration date stamped on your foot. The person standing next to you may leave this earth tomorrow, no one knows, just because you have a diagnosis of a disease that scares most of us, this does not change the facts that NO ONE KNOWS when their life is done. Live your life, love those around you, forgive freely, say what needs to be said, but not because you have a diagnosis of cancer but because that is the way we are called to live our life daily anyway. My prayers are with you for comfort, for peace, for hope and for the promise that you do not walk alone for the Most High walks before you. --Love and prayers for you precious one.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
Hey Chris. Just want you to know our family is continuing to keep you in our thoughts and prayers each day. I'm looking forward to your future blog entries.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and Katie daily. Much love-Darrie
ReplyDeleteSending so much love and strength to you and Katie.
ReplyDeletePraying for you still Good Luck with your last week of treatments!! Hope you celebrate and do it well :) sara mckay kemp
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